Day 1 – I didn’t get what I expected

So this is day 1 of sharing my fitness journey. If you have been following my posts up to this point, you all know I live with Endometriosis. Well, I have been having a flare up for 4 or 5 days now, it can be hard to keep track when it feels like all the days roll into one. Anyways, whenever I am having a flare up, I don’t sleep well. My body keeps going into deep sleep (or so FitBit says) right before I wake up for the day. This causes me to feel pretty crappy every morning. So needless to say, it is hard to be motivated when I am in pain and feel like I haven’t slept.

I decided this morning that I was going to hit up a hot yoga class today, help stretch my body out and relax me. My youngest is also currently starting the “terrible two” stage, so I definitely wanted some mama time today. It also wasn’t an easy day for me to get out of the door to make it to the gym. I sometimes can be my own worst enemy, especially when I am not feeling 100%, and make excuses as to why I can’t or shouldn’t go. But, I thought to myself, “self, don’t do this. Don’t cheat yourself of what you need and deserve”. So off I went, barely making it on time, but I got there.

I went in thinking it was going to be quiet and peaceful and I was going to just relax all 90 minutes…that’s what happens when you don’t check what class you are attending! I was walking into a power vinyasa class, and the instructor had a different idea for the normal music-less class it is. We danced, we sang, we shook our hips and arms. I have never laughed so much in a yoga class before. It was so much fun, and I left there feeling 1000x better than when I went in.

During the class, the instructor told us that we are the only ones standing in our way. We are the only ones stopping us from getting whatever it is we want in life. How true is that, I knew all this already, but when you are having a euphoric moment, it seems to sink in so much more.

This morning, I was the only one trying to stop myself from feeling better. Every day, my “cravings” are just me trying to stop myself from getting out of my comfort zone. It’s all me. Not my husband, when he comes home with my favorite bag of chips. Not my children, when they are being so bad and I just want to run away. Not anyone else around me. Just me.

So, I invite every person who reads this to just step out of your own way. Let yourself experience new things and enjoy them. If what I experienced today was even a couple of years ago, I would have crawled into my shell, there would have been no dancing or singing from me. But today, I let it all go, all the feelings that hold me back and it felt amazing!

Every journey to greatness starts with one step. One step in the right direction. When you feel the effects of your hard work and determination you won’t want to turn back. I promise you that. But you have to stop dragging yourself backwards, and push yourself forward!

I would like to end this off with a picture of me stuffing my face after class, famished, but totally in a blissful state. I didn’t feel like that before I went, that is for sure.


P.S. My eyes don’t match when I smile, not sure why! Haha



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